WAITING IN THE HALLWAY
This Lenten season without sugar has forced me to pay attention to my feelings rather than ignore them and eat sugar. Being honest is not an easy thing to do whether it is with other people or yourself. Moving past the surface feelings to go deeper is most difficult. I am restless due to wrestling with my fluctuating feelings between chasing where God is leading me and my perceived happiness. Oh the irony because happiness is fleeting. I question why God has led me to my current position and occupation. I was excited at first. I knew without a doubt this is where God wanted me to be. Now, I am searching for answers because it is not where I want to be. Everyday is new and I think to myself that this is the day that I will find the answer. The day ends in disappointment because still no answer. It is as if I am stuck in a hallway waiting for doors to open. Doors that lead to opportunities. There are options and other opportunities that are in sight, but ...
